Train Stations & Playstations - Pat D & Lady Paradox.mp3

[00:09.497] I put my all into this one special person
[00:12.839] But in the end it added up to too much hurting
[00:15.844] Cursing on the phone and threats that I’d desert him
[00:18.615] Our theatrical performance was no longer working
[00:21.227] So in the end I just had to close the curtains
[00:23.913] I’m certain things could’ve gone a better way
[00:26.595] But if they did who’s to say that he’d have never strayed?
[00:29.060] Anyway, I’m trying to find the ground from which I’ll levitate
[00:32.197] But pressure weighs my mind and I’m back to square one
[00:34.469] Going 'round in circles, I'm asking ‘where's the care gone?’
[00:37.200] I swear one thing I know is – you can only rely on yourself when you’re hopeless
[00:42.554] I know this now but now it's too late
[00:45.067] If I knew this then I wouldn’t have made those mistakes
[00:47.789] But take the good with the bad
[00:49.678] And if the bad overtakes then remember what you had
[00:53.308] 'cause you, were a part of me
[00:56.362] And a part of you's still with me but it's scarring me
[00:58.522] And a part of me sometimes asks – can’t we be?
[01:01.275] But you apart from me
[01:02.859] It's true – I’d rather be
[01:04.822] 'cause you, were a part of me
[01:06.831] And a part of you's still with me but it's scarring me
[01:09.346] And a part of me sometimes asks – can’t we be?
[01:11.924] But you apart from me
[01:13.706] It's true – I’d rather be
[01:15.578] Your eyes and mine – that was what love was
[01:17.813] But somewhere down the line all the good got cut off
[01:20.330] Now hearing you rhyme has got me thinking what could’ve been
[01:23.123] And how you should’ve seen that you were crushing me
[01:25.839] But in the process you thought that you were loving me
[01:28.319] I would’ve been there for you – you only had to ask
[01:31.096] But now you’re sad 'cause all we had collapsed
[01:33.800] And now you made the crack a major gap
[01:35.928] Going crazy mad stating that you want your baby back
[01:38.066] I’m just a part of the puzzle in your hazy past
[01:40.444] And yeah you made me laugh and times were so beautiful for a while
[01:44.523] I’d wait a whole damn month to see that one station smile
[01:47.283] 'cause you, were a part of me
[01:49.914] And a part of you's still with me but it's scarring me
[01:52.394] And a part of me sometimes asks – can’t we be?
[01:55.090] But you apart from me
[01:57.407] It's true – I’d rather be
[01:58.837] 'cause you, were a part of me
[02:00.367] And a part of you's still with me but it's scarring me
[02:03.127] And a part of me sometimes asks – can’t we be?
[02:05.970] But you apart from me
[02:07.718] It's true – I’d rather be
[02:09.234] So now I’m here and it's been two years but I’m
[02:11.855] Still unclear – please break it down
[02:14.247] It's been so long – I can’t hate you now
[02:16.598] Hating how I’m back at the same song - the pain ain’t gone
[02:20.437] Asking mary-jane to make me strong
[02:22.448] And there’s tainted songs that I can’t even listen to
[02:24.706] Train stations, Playstations hold a bit of you
[02:27.826] And it's crazy – I swear I wasn’t missing you
[02:30.408] Till you came back to remind me what kissing you felt like
[02:32.971] And it felt nice
[02:34.616] I should’ve stopped you first – 'cause when I got with him you got with her
[02:38.424] It's crazy – I feel lost on earth but when I’ve got your words I’m meant to be
[02:42.858] It's stupidity – he’s twice the man you’ll ever be
[02:45.690] Two times nicer and I know he’d never threaten me
[02:48.212] Never put me secondly – never ever stressing me the way you did
[02:51.982] What made you flip? What made you the way you are?
[02:54.495] What made you make me like this?
[02:55.714] I’ve hid from love like it's a virus
[02:57.323] And now I’m always high look, just like we used to be
[02:59.755] Just another reminder of us – of you and me
[03:03.257] 'cause you, were a part of me
[03:05.291] And a part of you's still with me but it's scarring me
[03:07.824] And a part of me sometimes asks – can’t we be?
[03:10.640] But you apart from me
[03:12.196] It's true – I’d rather be
[03:13.922] 'cause you, were a part of me
[03:16.059] And a part of you's still with me but it's scarring me
[03:18.549] And a part of me sometimes asks – can’t we be?
[03:21.376] But you apart from me
[03:23.081] It's true – I’d rather be
[03:57.000] (You are, the most literary jazz face I know. I don't know anybody who is deeper into the literature.)
[04:05.000] (Well it's because I, you know I came from a very straight laced family.
[04:10.965]My father was a minister, and he was the uh, uh the cultural and the moral foundation of our entire neighborhood ya know and so we had to,
[04:25.312]had to uh uh exemplify all the things for which he stood so I had a very, a very straight life, never engaged in any gambling,
[04:35.550]we never used any profane language, anywhere near the house,
[04:40.233]there was no alcohol in the house, no smoking,
[04:45.125]we had to, when we got up in the morning we had to pray, before we went to sleep at night we prayed.
[04:50.827]That's the way I grew up so then when I started singing jazz and I had to consort (*laughs*) with these musicians you know,
[05:00.322] I had to maintain two vocabularies like I couldn't come to the gig and say um 'my wife and I went to a cinema today.
[05:10.725]' I would say uh, 'me and my bed-buddy took in a flick' you know (*laughs*)
[05:20.721] so I had to maintain these two vocabularies starting very early so it gave me a much more broad s-spectrum of life.)