[00:00.00] 作词 : Natalie Merchant[00:01.00] 作曲 : Natalie Merchant[00:13.47]To think of my task is chilling.[00:16.44]To know i was carefully building the mask i was wearing for two years, swearing i'd tear it off.[00:34.32]I've sat in the dark explaining to myself that i'm straining too hard for feelings i ought to find easily.[00:54.60]Called myself jezebel.[00:55.20]I don't believe.[00:55.47]Before i say that the vows we made weigh like a stone in my heart.[01:09.39]Family is family, don't let this tear us apart.[01:22.08]You lie there, an innocent baby.[01:26.25]I feel like the thief who is raiding your home, entering and breaking and taking in every room.[01:43.50]I know your feelings are tender and that inside you the embers still glow.[01:52.74]But i'm a shadow, i'm only a bed of blackened coal.[02:02.04]Call myself jezebel for wanting to leave.[02:11.61]I'm not saying i'm replacing love for some other word to describe the sacred tie that bound me to you.[02:27.12]I'm just saying we've mistaken one for thousands of words.[02:34.23]And for that mistake, i've caused you such pain that i damn that word.[02:44.01]I've no more ways to hide that i'm a desolate and empty, hollow place inside.[03:05.70]I'm not saying i'm replacing love for some other word to describe the sacred tie that bound me to you.[03:20.85]I'm not saying love's a plaything.[03:23.82]No, it's a powerful word, inspired by strong desire to bind myself to you.[03:35.25]How i wish that we never had tried to be man and his wife, to weave our lives into a blindfold over both our eyes.